Intimate Desperation

All the time I have been thinking
of the life I've had so far.
And the pictures of my life
keep pouring into my consciousness
to be drowned in the dark of my conscience.
This thought renders me helpless -
I don't know what to do.
And all the thoughts keep clinging to my mind
giving way to options of all kind.
And this renders me helpless.
I don't know what to do.

Heinrich Baumgarten